"The will to greatness clouds the mind..."

[greygirlbeast]

The anger's still here, and there's no way I'm fit to write an actual entry. So, instead, I'll just post five more of the photos from the evening of July 7th (behind the cut), though I think I posted the best ones on Tuesday. There's not much to be said for yesterday, anyway. It was hot. I didn't write. Spooky broke a tooth. I spent a great deal of time lying on the floor in the front parlour staring up at the ceiling.

I do not want this to become a "sick journal," a catalog of maladies, a daily list of infirmities. I hate that sort of shit. This journal exists to promote my writing, and to help me accomplish my writing.

Late, late last night, I had the third seizure in three days. The worst of the three. Today, I feel like someone ran over me with a small truck. I'm so tired of this. Just...tired of it. Tuesday's seizure actually happened at the market, the first ever in a public place. Fortunately, it was just a little blip, like my brain rebooted or something, a few seconds. I don't think anyone, except Spooky, even noticed. Anyway, yeah. And I know why this is happening, or I think I do. Stress + mental exhaustion. So, today, I'm just going to take it easy, try to get from one end to the other. No greater goal.





Can't recall the name of this side street off Benefit....



The Old Court Bed and Breakfast, catty-corner to the "Shunned House." Spooky and I spent a night here in June 2000.



Looking west down Thomas Street from Benefit Street. The fourth building in the row is the Fleur-de-Lys Building, occupied by the Providence Art Club, and featured in HPL's "The Call of Cthulhu."



Part of the Rhode Island School of Design (RISD).



Looking west towards the great power plant on the Providence River, just north of the hurricane barrier, the waxing crescent moon perched between the smokestacks. I'm going to get much better photos of this building soon.

Comments

[borggrrl.livejournal.com]

I don't comment here much, but you cross my mind often and, every time you do, I send good vibes out into the universe for you.

[cause-catyljan.livejournal.com]

I presume you're not taking any medication for said seizures? Have you been to see a neurologist yet, if you don't mind my asking?

I'm on Lamictal which is pretty effective but not especially ferocious in terms of side effects. I have plenty of those "blips" and "reboots" - it often happens when I deal with several different tasks at once, so taking it easy sounds like a pretty good idea.

Take care.

[kalamah.livejournal.com]

Lovely pics -- I want to be your neighbour!

Tried to find you in Toxia last night, to no avail. Do you mind if I just IM you for your exact location?

And, of course, I wish you the best of health with all my heart.

[mrs-ralph.livejournal.com]

I hated reboots...for me they were always like someone setting off a flashbulb in my face (or those memory wipers from 'Men in Black'.) Fortunately it was a trapped nerve from a combo of whiplash and arthritis (and stress) so it was fixable. I hope they find something that can be fixed in your case.

[loki1978de.livejournal.com]

it seems you are right. Your stress obviously rises the last weeks. and wham you get a hattrick
Just be very careful....but not frightend

[smallpinkfish.livejournal.com]

I just read about your "reboot" and wish you did't have to deal with this crap. As I'm sure you do to. I'd glady help if I could. I know all this is totally useless to you. Anyway I don't pray, but I am hopeing for this to end for you. I just read your post and thought to myself that you have a tremedously posative attitude. I just created an accout and have used it for nothing but a sick journal. It seems unfair that you are the one stuck with this crap. Especially since your an amazing talent and the world is in need of more of your writing. blah-blah-blah sorry
B-well

[nightwitch.livejournal.com]

I know what you mean about not wanting your journal to become a "catalog of maladies". As I get older, I have a growing list of infirmities...nothing major, let's call them irritants, of lesser or greater degree. I won't mention them in my journal though because I think it would become tiresome to read, and also because I work as a nurse and hear about people's troubles all day long and have no wish to burden another with mine.

From the pictures you've been posting, it looks like you live in a lovely town and a very interesting house.

reboot

[nd-scot.livejournal.com]

I've had my defibrillator go off - that will re-boot everything and is quite suprising :)

[tsarina.livejournal.com]

Oh, poor Spooky! I feel her pain. My cat does too, as he just had two broken teeth pulled. He's using it as leverage to have an all beef diet lately, the picky boy.

Sorry that I don't live in your neck of the woods, or I would make you both some pie. (Pie is my temporary cure for many things) I'm still working on that pie teleportation device.

Perhaps on a happier note: I am now about to begin Daughter of Hounds. I had not read any of your books before this year, I confess. They are quite beautiful, and I enjoy your writing. It has that 'I wish *I* had written that' effect on me.

[greygirlbeast.livejournal.com]

I am now about to begin Daughter of Hounds. I had not read any of your books before this year, I confess. They are quite beautiful, and I enjoy your writing. It has that 'I wish *I* had written that' effect on me.

Thank you. Very much.

[kiaduran.livejournal.com]

Sometimes it feels like the universe is taking an enema on all of us.

*add favorite obscene word/phrase here*

[greygirlbeast.livejournal.com]

Sometimes it feels like the universe is taking an enema on all of us.

Pretty much.

[mellawyrden.livejournal.com]

I hope you're feeling much better. The seisures sound terrifying.

I hope Spooky can resolve her tooth trouble without undue pain & expense.

[serenavalentino.livejournal.com]

The last thing you may want or need is everyone chiming in with advice about your seizures, but for whatever it's worth, you are correct about stress and exhaustion contributing or even causing them.

and...

[serenavalentino.livejournal.com]

I hope you were able to rest your mind and body today and are recovering well.

[omegamorningsta.livejournal.com]

You live in a beautiful place.. In more ways than one.