a monkey and a roast-beef sandwich
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greygirlbeastI spent, wait, let's see...yes, I spent about seven and a half hours at the iBook yesterday and managed to write not even one goddamn word on "Bradbury Weather." Not one word. I updated Nebari.net (adding Chapter IX of the Nar'eth manga and new costume photos), edited and uploaded Dragon*Con photos for the blog (which I really wish I'd saved for today or tomorrow), and lots of other stuff that has no direct bearing on my writing. But I was at the computer all that time. I was right here where I'm supposed to be, even though it was warm and beautiful outside, the last of summer fading in the aftermath of Ivan, and it was cold and icky, already, in my office. My feet hurt from the cold, but I can't bring myself to admit the cryosphere is kicking in already. I can't bring myself to put on warm socks in September. That's just too frelling depressing.
Today, I shall sit down with Spooky, and we will read everything I've written so far on "Bradbury Weather," and, hopefully, that will kick my brain into gear again, and tomorrow I'll be writing on it once more. It's easy for the doomed to be gallant. Screw you, chaos. You will have none of me. You will flow over me like water over glass. I know all Nine of the Seven Deady Sins of Writing, and I know how to do this thing, this wordsmithing, storytelling thing, even if I know damned little else. I know, too, that the storm around me is beyond my power to control, but the storm within me, a sympathetic twister spawned by those external winds, is something I can control. It might take great will and resolve and strength and drugs, but I can hold that storm at my mercy.
My last therapist would have called that self-talk. My high-school history teacher, the one who was really a football coach, would have called it a pep talk. It doesn't matter what I call it. It only matters that I listen.
Last night, after the seven and a half hours at Hinderance, Spooky and I went to our favourite Thai restaurant and had three very delicious dishes, then rented Twelve Monkeys on DVD. Neither of us had seen it since the original theatrical release back in 1995, and I was very pleased that it was even better than I remembered.
I am always an Angry Person. But lately I have been remarkably angry, even for me. I think Harlan did it to me. I think when he kissed me at Dragon*Con, he slipped me a nanobot programmed to maximize righteous indignation at the rampant stupidity of mankind. It's becoming almost unbearable. I've been angry for two weeks. For example, just this morning I found myself livid at how Storm Constantine, one of the best fantasists living today, has been so little appreciated. Her stories of the Wraeththu, the Eloim, the Grigori, the Artemesians, these are far better than that purile crap Mercedes Lackey churns out, but Storm has not enjoyed Lackey's success. Storm's a smarter writer than Anne McCaffrey, but McCaffrey's endless stream of dragon novels gets all the praise. It pisses me off. Then there's this mammoth Susanna Clarke novel, the supposed second-coming of Thomas Pynchon, and, no, I haven't tried to read it yet myself, but Harlan (there he is again) declared at Dragon*Con, in so many words, that the Emperor --in this case, the Empress -- has no clothes. The hype and promotion lavished on this novel would "feed" most of us for ten years, would feed our egos, our books' needs, but here it's all spent upon one book, for whatever reason. It's not a question of whether or not Susanna Clarke deserves it, but simply the fact that if some of us didn't get so much, all of us might have a little more. I should shut up. This is going to get me into trouble. But it pisses me off, that publishers treat most of their authors like shit, and our books are thrown to the indifferent masses without so much as a good-luck kiss, while a handful, who are, largely, no better or worse writers, are given book tours and red carpets and so on and so forth. And it's not suprising that those books are the ones that are more likely to succeed. It's Wonderland logic. You only have to stand on your head and think backwards to see the sense of it.
Disclaimer: The preceeding was not an attack on Susanna Clarke or her work, which I've not read and am therefore not fit to judge. Wait. I did read "Stopp't Clock Yard" way back in 1996 and quite liked it. So, please, do not go telling people how Caitlín Kiernan was saying nasty things about Susanna Clarke, because she wasn't, and the words are right here to prove it. The preceeding was an expression of my anger towards a) the publishing industry and b) the elitist tendencies of some genre critics and literary critics who occassionally stoop to decide some book or another has "transcended the genre" (this has been said of my own work, and it pisses me off) and c) readers who often behave like sheep, if only they can find a willing shepherd.
Read a Storm Constantine novel. Read Thomas Ligotti. Read Jeffrey E. Barlough. Read Ramsey Campbell. Stop thinking so much about what everyone else is reading, what the Village Voice has decided to applaud, and look for the authors who work just as hard, or harder, than the "brightest stars." And if you are not guilty of literary sheepism, please ignore everything I have just written. It was not aimed at you, obviously. I'm tempted to begin a Most Overlooked Book Club, as a token antidote to the hit factory that is contemporary American publishing.
I am angry, and I blame Harlan. I think that I shall call him and tell him so.
Today, I shall sit down with Spooky, and we will read everything I've written so far on "Bradbury Weather," and, hopefully, that will kick my brain into gear again, and tomorrow I'll be writing on it once more. It's easy for the doomed to be gallant. Screw you, chaos. You will have none of me. You will flow over me like water over glass. I know all Nine of the Seven Deady Sins of Writing, and I know how to do this thing, this wordsmithing, storytelling thing, even if I know damned little else. I know, too, that the storm around me is beyond my power to control, but the storm within me, a sympathetic twister spawned by those external winds, is something I can control. It might take great will and resolve and strength and drugs, but I can hold that storm at my mercy.
My last therapist would have called that self-talk. My high-school history teacher, the one who was really a football coach, would have called it a pep talk. It doesn't matter what I call it. It only matters that I listen.
Last night, after the seven and a half hours at Hinderance, Spooky and I went to our favourite Thai restaurant and had three very delicious dishes, then rented Twelve Monkeys on DVD. Neither of us had seen it since the original theatrical release back in 1995, and I was very pleased that it was even better than I remembered.
I am always an Angry Person. But lately I have been remarkably angry, even for me. I think Harlan did it to me. I think when he kissed me at Dragon*Con, he slipped me a nanobot programmed to maximize righteous indignation at the rampant stupidity of mankind. It's becoming almost unbearable. I've been angry for two weeks. For example, just this morning I found myself livid at how Storm Constantine, one of the best fantasists living today, has been so little appreciated. Her stories of the Wraeththu, the Eloim, the Grigori, the Artemesians, these are far better than that purile crap Mercedes Lackey churns out, but Storm has not enjoyed Lackey's success. Storm's a smarter writer than Anne McCaffrey, but McCaffrey's endless stream of dragon novels gets all the praise. It pisses me off. Then there's this mammoth Susanna Clarke novel, the supposed second-coming of Thomas Pynchon, and, no, I haven't tried to read it yet myself, but Harlan (there he is again) declared at Dragon*Con, in so many words, that the Emperor --in this case, the Empress -- has no clothes. The hype and promotion lavished on this novel would "feed" most of us for ten years, would feed our egos, our books' needs, but here it's all spent upon one book, for whatever reason. It's not a question of whether or not Susanna Clarke deserves it, but simply the fact that if some of us didn't get so much, all of us might have a little more. I should shut up. This is going to get me into trouble. But it pisses me off, that publishers treat most of their authors like shit, and our books are thrown to the indifferent masses without so much as a good-luck kiss, while a handful, who are, largely, no better or worse writers, are given book tours and red carpets and so on and so forth. And it's not suprising that those books are the ones that are more likely to succeed. It's Wonderland logic. You only have to stand on your head and think backwards to see the sense of it.
Disclaimer: The preceeding was not an attack on Susanna Clarke or her work, which I've not read and am therefore not fit to judge. Wait. I did read "Stopp't Clock Yard" way back in 1996 and quite liked it. So, please, do not go telling people how Caitlín Kiernan was saying nasty things about Susanna Clarke, because she wasn't, and the words are right here to prove it. The preceeding was an expression of my anger towards a) the publishing industry and b) the elitist tendencies of some genre critics and literary critics who occassionally stoop to decide some book or another has "transcended the genre" (this has been said of my own work, and it pisses me off) and c) readers who often behave like sheep, if only they can find a willing shepherd.
Read a Storm Constantine novel. Read Thomas Ligotti. Read Jeffrey E. Barlough. Read Ramsey Campbell. Stop thinking so much about what everyone else is reading, what the Village Voice has decided to applaud, and look for the authors who work just as hard, or harder, than the "brightest stars." And if you are not guilty of literary sheepism, please ignore everything I have just written. It was not aimed at you, obviously. I'm tempted to begin a Most Overlooked Book Club, as a token antidote to the hit factory that is contemporary American publishing.
I am angry, and I blame Harlan. I think that I shall call him and tell him so.
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Date: 2004-09-19 05:29 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-09-19 06:35 pm (UTC)Duly noting all the authors above for hunt-downage.
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Date: 2004-09-19 07:33 pm (UTC)This came up a few days ago when I was talking to JP about the lady at the "connecting the dots" panel, and her assertion that genre fiction should somehow follow different rules than "literature." These kind of people drive me nuts. I'm just not sure why they are so happy to segregate themselves into some kind of literary ghetto, living down to the expectation they are helping to create regarding the value and validity of "genre" fiction. As if Science Fiction, Horror, or Fantasy are somehow different from "real" literature.
Uhr... Sorry bout that. That's been gnawing at me since the panel.
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Date: 2004-09-19 07:39 pm (UTC)Don't be sorry about it. It should bother you, and you should resist this notion.
There are no genres. There's good fiction and bad fiction, and it's all "literary" because it's all literature. That's all the categories I need (and even they're open for debate).
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Date: 2004-09-20 01:56 am (UTC)I wish I knew that lady's name, because I'd actually like to e-mail her and ask her about some things.
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Date: 2004-09-20 03:14 am (UTC)I'm not sure who she was. I want to say Debra Dixon, but I'm not absolutely sure.
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Date: 2004-09-19 10:13 pm (UTC)Further pissing me off is that altho the quality of writing is the same, the new name often gets a bit of a push, and does better. Usually in a more 'people (woman) friendly mode.
One writer that I know writes terrific historical novels, full of very accurate detail. Her latest novel, written under a new name, is well done, but rather on the romance side. Sex scenes, etc. Hope to god it sells, but daym.
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Date: 2004-09-19 10:16 pm (UTC)I've actually considered doing this with my sf stuff.
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Date: 2004-09-20 01:56 am (UTC)_A Choir of Ill Children_ is one of the creepiest Southern Gothic novels I have EVER read. It's almost...loathesome. You can practically smell the filthy swampwater and the greasy sweat of conjoined triplets as it oozes out of the pages.
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Date: 2004-09-20 03:22 am (UTC)Nice pictures. I love your new holster. Why haven't I been drawing your boots and gloves properly? Love that costume.
then rented Twelve Monkeys on DVD.
Weird. I watched Vertigo for the first time last night and I was reminded both of Twelve Monkeys--because of the scene from Vertigo used--and of you because something about Vertigo reminded me very much of your novels, like it was, in some ways, from the same vein.
I am always an Angry Person. But lately I have been remarkably angry, even for me.
Hail to the ultimate eema-kicking nixar . . .
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Date: 2004-09-20 03:50 am (UTC)I designed it. Spooky made it. It's neat. I liked the idea of placing the holster in front like that, sort of at a 90-degree angle of what you might expect.
I watched Vertigo for the first time last night and I was reminded both of Twelve Monkeys--because of the scene from Vertigo used--and of you because something about Vertigo reminded me very much of your novels, like it was, in some ways, from the same vein.
There's a touch of synchronity in there somewhere.
Why haven't I been drawing your boots and gloves properly? Love that costume.
I don't think you've had very clear photos to work from.
Hail to the ultimate eema-kicking nixar . . .
We shall put that on my tombstone.
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Date: 2004-09-20 08:28 am (UTC)I remember meeting you at the World Horror Con back in '97, at that Overlook-esque Days Inn in Niagara Falls. You had your leather Concrete Blonde jacket on, were there holding court with Poppy and Crista. Anyway, I've been a loyal fan since then, recently adding your blog to my friends list.
Wanted to thank you for your praise of Storm Constantine's writing. For me, she and Tanith Lee are two of the most overlooked authors working in the genre, so your mention was enough to make me come out to shout, "Amen!" And if you ever start that Most Overlooked Book Club, sign me up...
Thanks for your time,
Michael
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Date: 2004-09-20 03:06 pm (UTC)You're welcome.
Wow. You were at WHC '97? That seems like a zillion years ago. I wish i could say that was the skankiest hotel I'd ever stayed in...
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Date: 2004-09-20 08:22 pm (UTC)It was the first time I had slowed my reading speed down toward the end just to make it last longer.
Is that odd?
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Date: 2004-09-20 09:14 pm (UTC)Not at all.
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Date: 2004-09-21 06:14 am (UTC)So much so in fact that if I didn't already know your middle initial I would ask if it was U.
Susana Clarke
Date: 2004-09-20 10:10 pm (UTC)John Clute has a good (as in well written and insightful) review of it for the interested has some good (appropriate and timely) things to say about hype and its relation to editing.
http://www.scifi.com/sfw/issue385/excess.html
Re: Susana Clarke
Date: 2004-09-20 10:53 pm (UTC)You're welcome.
Thanks for the link to the review. I shall link to it from the blog tomorrow. It's quite well written.