I can definitely appreciate your perspective, and once again, I do think it's pretty ridiculous to have to censor everything you say. I've been writing fiction about suicide, self-mutilation, and other possibly "triggery" disturbing things for years--since long before my mother killed herself. And I never posted warnings unless required to by someone else.
When my mother died, I plunged into a state of depression such as I had only seen before in, well, my mother. I spent all my time with this program going in the back of my head, replaying my imagined story of my mother's last days, fixated on her suffering and the pain of death. I have never had a problem confronting, dealing with, or overcoming pain--that's kind of been one of the defining features of my life, actually. But in this case, the pain was so terrifyingly immense that it had to be dealt with in small doses, in a reasonably controlled environment. There were several times where I was caught off guard, forced to confront some aspect of her death that I wasn't ready for...and the emotional aftermath of these events led me to the very edge of suicide myself.
I appreciate that film helped you to confront your pain. However, for me, I was already confronting that pain, constantly. When I saw a movie, it was to ESCAPE the horror of my life, not relive it. As rosefox said above, "I didn't avoid the fact of Liam's death, but I avoided being made to relive it. Your choice--your need--to confront your tragedy worked for you, but everyone grieves differently."
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Date: 2011-07-14 02:10 am (UTC)When my mother died, I plunged into a state of depression such as I had only seen before in, well, my mother. I spent all my time with this program going in the back of my head, replaying my imagined story of my mother's last days, fixated on her suffering and the pain of death. I have never had a problem confronting, dealing with, or overcoming pain--that's kind of been one of the defining features of my life, actually. But in this case, the pain was so terrifyingly immense that it had to be dealt with in small doses, in a reasonably controlled environment. There were several times where I was caught off guard, forced to confront some aspect of her death that I wasn't ready for...and the emotional aftermath of these events led me to the very edge of suicide myself.
I appreciate that film helped you to confront your pain. However, for me, I was already confronting that pain, constantly. When I saw a movie, it was to ESCAPE the horror of my life, not relive it. As