I decided that, for now, our guild's going to concern itself much less with rp...
No problem. I was finding myself increasingly dissatisfied with how I was characterizing Celinn - originally to be based on a different iteration of her - because I was realizing that she just was going to be coming from a pretty different background than that older version I was more comfortable with. This left me sort of flailing for motivation, fumbling with a "real" understanding of her internal logic and ego. The problem now is that, perhaps as you mention here, my grasp of the canon and lore is still being assembled. It becomes difficult to synchronize a RP character with the lore and establish narrative authenicity without some reasonable mastery of that lore. I think we had four players, four perspectives, and four different levels of fluency in the lore without an unifying vision of what the hell we were supposed to be doing.
Or maybe that was just me. I was pushing my RP in the wrong direction, I think, but didn't know how to remain true to whatever my PC needs to be while remaining compatible with the other players/characters. Ugh.
In any regard, if I didn't blow it horrifically, I'll be glad to bounce around Telara and stabbify things with you two in the future. I would like to experiment more with Celinn's "voice", during downtime or whatever, if that won't be troublesome.
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Date: 2011-04-12 07:36 pm (UTC)No problem. I was finding myself increasingly dissatisfied with how I was characterizing Celinn - originally to be based on a different iteration of her - because I was realizing that she just was going to be coming from a pretty different background than that older version I was more comfortable with. This left me sort of flailing for motivation, fumbling with a "real" understanding of her internal logic and ego. The problem now is that, perhaps as you mention here, my grasp of the canon and lore is still being assembled. It becomes difficult to synchronize a RP character with the lore and establish narrative authenicity without some reasonable mastery of that lore. I think we had four players, four perspectives, and four different levels of fluency in the lore without an unifying vision of what the hell we were supposed to be doing.
Or maybe that was just me. I was pushing my RP in the wrong direction, I think, but didn't know how to remain true to whatever my PC needs to be while remaining compatible with the other players/characters. Ugh.
In any regard, if I didn't blow it horrifically, I'll be glad to bounce around Telara and stabbify things with you two in the future. I would like to experiment more with Celinn's "voice", during downtime or whatever, if that won't be troublesome.