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He couldn't make a sentence stand up and be noticed if he put Viagra in the ink.

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This the the sort of entry people do not like to comment on.

As this journal enters what I expect to be it's final three months as an entity that will be updated daily, my chief regret is that I have always held so much back. And that I have to continue to do so, probably, even now. From the beginning, I wanted this to be a blog where I talked about what it's like for me to be a writer, and, as much as I have been able, I've done that. But there have been many, many times when my hands have been tied by the politics of the industry. That is, I could say something true, true and useful to anyone with thoughts of trying to become a published author. But, as with all other arenas of human endeavor, publishing is ruled by politics, and telling the truth can be detrimental and even suicidal.

All writers lie about writing, and they do it for various reasons. But one reason that writers lie about what it's like to be a writer is their fear of repercussions that could end their career. Same with speaking openly and honestly about the work of other authors. To be able to do this would be immensely useful to anyone with aspirations in entering this shadowy realm. All those naïve wouldbes. But I've never been in a position to do this, to take those risks, and for that I apologize. Looking back, it's among those most valuable insights I could have imparted. I'll have to settle for old, familiar warnings such as Hic sunt dracones or, perhaps more appropriately, Lasciate ogne speranza, voi ch'intrate.

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As for my daily activities, writing and not writing and whatnot, the last couple of days that sort of thing has taken a backseat to getting the "teaser" trailer for The Drowning Girl out there. Let me see what I can now recall.

On Wednesday, I wrote 1,018 words on a piece for Sirenia Digest #73 called "Blast the Human Flower." Yeah, a lazy bit of titling, but not an inappropriate bit of titling. It may or may not stay on the finished vignette. I can recall nothing else of significance, or that's especially interesting, about Wednesday. Oh, we finished Season Six of Law and Order: Criminal Intent. How's that?

On Thursday, I awoke to the news that Penguin (Roc/NAL) had made on offer on Blood Oranges, and I spent part of the day discussing that with my agent. Nothing more was written on "Blast the Human Flower." I fucked off and left the house, and Spooky and I ended up at the Trinity Brew Pub, where I indulged in hot wings and beer. I don't often drink alcohol anymore (my meds), but I had a pint of their very excellent Belgian saison, made with a new variety of New Zealand hops. When I do drink beer, I want good beer. Later, Varla – my Sith Assassin – made Level 20.

Yesterday, we went to an early (1 p.m. CaST) matinée of David Fincher's adaptation of The Girl With the Dragon Tattoo, and it's very, very good. Truly. And Trent Reznor deserves another Oscar for the soundtrack. The cover of Bryan Ferry's Is Your Love Strong Enough by How to Destroy Angels in exquisite, and, for that matter, the opening title sequence alone is almost worth the price of admission. No writing again yesterday. I don't think I've been slacking off; just too much anger and depression. Okay. Bullshit, no matter how I feel, I've been slacking off, and it ends today. Last night, I didn't get to sleep until after five a.m., sitting up late reading stories by Michael Shea and a very good piece by Kim Newman, "Another Fish Story." I don't usually care for Newman, but I did like this one.

And that, in a nutshell, is the past three days. Oh, except I've been watching documentaries on the Mars Polar Lander, cosmic collisions, and "ancient astronauts" (I'm ashamed to admit that last one, but sometimes we learn a great deal about good science by watching the crackpots who have no clue when it comes to methodology, reproducible results, outlandish claims, anecdotal evidence, and critical thought). There are some photos from Thursday, below, behind the cut. Oh, I did want to mention that in the next day or two, we'll begin a series of auctions on eBay which will include souvenirs from the shoot back in October and also a copy of The Drowning Girl. I'll announce those as soon as they go up.

Okay. Gotta go write.

Hands Tied,
Aunt Beast





Trinity Brew Pub.



You gotta love any bar with the head of a tyrannosaurid mounted on the wall.



The Bus Mall, Kennedy Plaza, the Federal Courthouse, and, on the left, the last sad remainders of Occupy Providence.

All photographs Copyright © Caitlín R. Kiernan 2012

Date: 2012-01-07 06:34 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] pwtucker.livejournal.com
Congratulations on the offer from Roc and the teaser trailer for The Drowning Girl (which was as beautiful as it was tantalizing).

I wrote much of my last novel to The Social Network soundtrack, and plan on writing my next one to that of The Girl With The Dragon Tattoo.

Have you watched the original Swedish version of GWTDT? If so, how did you thing Fincher's version compared?

Date: 2012-01-07 06:52 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] greygirlbeast.livejournal.com


Have you watched the original Swedish version of GWTDT? If so, how did you thing Fincher's version compared?


I actually think the remake if much better.

Congratulations on the offer from Roc

Hold off on the congratulations for now.

Date: 2012-01-08 01:53 am (UTC)
sovay: (I Claudius)
From: [personal profile] sovay
I actually think the remake is much better.

I've seen neither, but may I ask how? (I have read the novel.)

eBay Auctions

Date: 2012-01-07 07:24 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] biblio-phage.livejournal.com
Looking forward to getting a chance to bid on a proof of DROWNING GIRL. Proofs of your books (and the chapbooks, with a couple of exceptions, that only came with long OP limiteds) are among the hardest of your stuff to find.

Re: eBay Auctions

Date: 2012-01-07 07:35 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] greygirlbeast.livejournal.com

Looking forward to getting a chance to bid on a proof of DROWNING GIRL.

I look forward to you bid!

Date: 2012-01-07 07:51 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] britmandelo.livejournal.com
All writers lie about writing, and they do it for various reasons. But one reason that writers lie about what it's like to be a writer is their fear of repercussions that could end their career.

The things that are never talked about astounded me once I started encountering them. A grab-bag of awful that, somehow, flits under the radar of discussion until it's quite too late to be warned.

Date: 2012-01-07 08:08 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] greygirlbeast.livejournal.com

The things that are never talked about astounded me once I started encountering them. A grab-bag of awful that, somehow, flits under the radar of discussion until it's quite too late to be warned.

Many editors and publishers rely on precisely this state of affairs. But then, this is only capitalism as usual.

Date: 2012-01-07 08:32 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] kurtmulgrew.livejournal.com
Nice pics. Now I want some Belgian beer tonight.

Date: 2012-01-07 08:45 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] greygirlbeast.livejournal.com

Now I want some Belgian beer tonight.

It's good stuff. You should be able to find a nice saison at a local liquor store.

Date: 2012-01-07 08:48 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] fusijui.livejournal.com
Haven't watched or even thought of 'Farscape' in ages, but the second photo immediately reminded me of Rygel the XVIth's forays into imaginative self-portraiture...

Your hints about the dark side of the writing trade are tantalizing. But I'm guessing there isn't enough serious dirt to qualify for the witness protection program? Bummer.

Date: 2012-01-07 09:13 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] greygirlbeast.livejournal.com
But I'm guessing there isn't enough serious dirt to qualify for the witness protection program?

Depending on the branch of publishing in question, there may well be. Pornography, newspapers, and news magazines, for example.
Edited Date: 2012-01-07 09:58 pm (UTC)

Date: 2012-01-07 11:04 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] fusijui.livejournal.com
I would be sorely tempted to tell all and light out for the hills, just for the sheer pleasure of running down the street hurling dirty laundry around.

Date: 2012-01-08 12:55 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] greygirlbeast.livejournal.com

Oh, I daily want to scream, "Fuck you you fucking fucks!" But I also don't want to live in a cardboard box.

Date: 2012-01-08 04:41 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] fusijui.livejournal.com
I get that. I think in the end the kamikaze option is the best compromise -- go out in a lewd spectacle of wanton depravity in their executive boardroom.

Date: 2012-01-07 08:52 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] pisceanblue.livejournal.com
I appreciate those times when you have told the truth, not only about the business, but your personal relationship with your career. Because, yes, I do feel like many writers are such Shiny Happy People and I find it difficult to believe that such a feeling could be sustained all the time in one's creative labors.

So thank you for those moments, Aunt Beast. I know it is difficult to walk through tha political minefield; I have a friend in the music business who says much the same: even one such as him who dwells in the background cannot be forthright about all he encounters and endures in the course of his career, and yet it is all he ever wanted to do.

Date: 2012-01-07 09:15 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] greygirlbeast.livejournal.com

Because, yes, I do feel like many writers are such Shiny Happy People and I find it difficult to believe that such a feeling could be sustained all the time

Those are masks worn for fear that the truth will be glimpsed. Oh, and readers want happy writers. We must remember that. Because, after all, it must surely be a joyful enterprise, right?

Date: 2012-01-07 09:04 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] subtlesttrap.livejournal.com
On Wednesday, I wrote 1,018 words on a piece for Sirenia Digest #73 called "Blast the Human Flower."

So pumped that we get 2 new stories in the next Sirenia Digest!! I just purchased Weird Fiction Review #2 just for "Fish Bride"! Its a great looking volume worth the price for your piece alone but an amazing monograph of Alexander Binder's work and a good Michael Cisco story appear as well. Kudos!

Date: 2012-01-07 09:16 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] greygirlbeast.livejournal.com

Its a great looking volume

It truly is, isn't it?

Date: 2012-01-07 10:10 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] ashlyme.livejournal.com
Man, I'd drink in that pub for the head alone. I've never tried saison, but it sounds nice - I'll have to see if any of the city centre pubs/off-licences stock it.

Brava on the teaser trailer. Especially that last gasp of air under the bathwater; roll on March.

Date: 2012-01-07 11:23 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] greygirlbeast.livejournal.com


Brava on the teaser trailer. Especially that last gasp of air under the bathwater; roll on March.


Thank you. If you only knew what poor Nicola went through for that shot (we had her in the tub for, I think, the better part of an hour). At one point, I was pretty sure she was actually about to drown.

Re: The Drowning Girl teaser trailer

Date: 2012-01-07 10:51 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] papersteven.livejournal.com
I really love the part where the woman (Eva?) is crawling out of the water. Very nice.

Re: The Drowning Girl teaser trailer

Date: 2012-01-07 11:24 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] greygirlbeast.livejournal.com

I really love the part where the woman (Eva?) is crawling out of the water.

yep. That's Eva. And filming that sequence, there's an epic tale. The water temperature was probably in the 50sF, and never mind the current.

Re: The Drowning Girl teaser trailer

Date: 2012-01-08 04:45 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] fusijui.livejournal.com
I was wondering about that... I mean, those gals are _white_, but that didn't look like the color of any warm skin!

Date: 2012-01-08 12:55 am (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] blackestdarkness
I've been meaning to see the new adaptation of The Girl With the Dragon Tattoo. I loved the Swedish versions and was able to see all three via Netflix. I'd heard the remake wasn't any better, but equal to, the original, but the fact that Trent Reznor composed the soundtrack pushes it over the edge for me. I'm glad you liked it.

The bar with the tyrannosaurid is freakin' awesome.

Date: 2012-01-08 01:22 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] ladyblue56.livejournal.com
Teaser Trailer is the Bow Tie. Dino head on the bar wall is bow tie but bow tie in a different way.

I am almost giddy w. anticipation over Blood Oranges. I read some para-rom authors and the idea of a Kiernan para-rom parody excites my brain to a ridiculous level. Drowning Girl is already preordered and I am reading a story at a time in Two Worlds and In Between.

Lastly, life is too short for cheap beer. Nice glow to the mug, glad you enjoyed the drinks.

Date: 2012-01-08 01:57 am (UTC)
sovay: (Claude Rains)
From: [personal profile] sovay
He couldn't make a sentence stand up and be noticed if he put Viagra in the ink.

If that's a sample of the dialogue on Law & Order: Criminal Intent, I may have to start watching the show.

Date: 2012-01-08 02:21 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] katesavage.livejournal.com
I saw the Swedish version of TGWTDT and thought too much was lost in whatever process they used in coming up with the screen play. Maybe I will checkout the remake but as a reader, some characters live a much richer story in my head while I read the book and afterwards.

BTW I snagged a copy of the Red Tree alt cover and am using it as the lock screen for my new iPhone. I hope that is OK and will remove it if it isn't. I would love some stills from The Drowning Girl too. I need to pester Kathryn for some pictures from the The Tale of the Raven project. Maybe I am mixed up but I remember seeing a teaser for that project and its seems there were the Silent in Red twins reading from a book on a rock. Either way, I hope she has more goodies those who love her artwork.

Date: 2012-01-08 06:56 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] kore-on-lj.livejournal.com
That trailer is amazing. I cautiously congratulate you in abeyance on the Blood offer and hope it leads to good news.

Here be Dragons

Date: 2012-01-08 08:55 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] loyd gant (from livejournal.com)
Hi Aunt Beast! I first became aware of you from the H.P. Lovecraft Doc: Fear of the Unknown, and I felt compelled to learn more about you and your work. I really enjoy your blogs, especially this one because it coincides with my first step out of the self publishing realm, and into the world of professional writing. I'm awaiting my contract now and admittedly I'm a little nervous. But after reading your post, even as foreboding as it may be, I felt comforted. i say this because you've help to humanize the the dream, to lower the pedestal on which I placed my aspirations since an early age. This helps my confidence, so thank you for your truthfulness.

Date: 2012-01-08 01:35 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] mrs-ralph.livejournal.com
I'm sorry you feel you can't speak freely. I think having to keep yourself to yourself is one of the perils of being in a business that requires selling. Even the great Stephen King kept himself to himself during most of his career. It is only since his accident that he has really come out to play and even then I don't think he is giving us his deepest held personal opinions or spouting off without thinking. I don't think that's what people are looking for when they follow a writer. I can't speak too much for other people but I think I was looking for the deep, dark secret of how to. Turns out there is no deep, dark secret or if there is one it is 'nose to the grindstone, shoulder to wheel and get on with it already!' or as so many writers say 'just write.' The magic isn't something you can beg, borrow, bottle or steal, it is what happens when a person with a unique mindset and a way with words sits down, writes a story and then lets the rest of the world read it.

I would hate to see you go away because I have really enjoyed reading your journal even if you don't feel you are speaking what people need to hear or freely or what have you. The unique pattern of your days has been interesting and enjoyable. Maybe I am a weirdo but I like to hear about it, about the little things behind the writing of a story and the advance details of when things can be read by the public are probably good for both of us.

I think you might have another big seller in 'Drowning Girl'...so many people are interested in reading it already that it is bound to do fairly well.

I hope you feel better and your terrible anger cools a little.

Bunny

Date: 2012-01-08 04:46 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] arielstarshadow.livejournal.com
Is there a specific reason for the ..."As this journal enters what I expect to be it's final three months as an entity that will be updated daily..." that I somehow missed somewhere along the way, or is it just a case of not enough hours in the day?

Date: 2012-01-08 09:10 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] alumiere.livejournal.com
I hope the anger and depression lessen a bit and you feel more productive. Sadly, I totally understand those emotions, and they suck.

If it was your thing I'd suggest a night of dancing at your local industrial club might help the anger (I usually feel clearer headwise even if I hurt like hell the day after a night of good stompy dancing). At any rate, if you have an outlet that works for you sometimes I hope it does its job soon.

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