Yeah. I think we're on more or less the same page, I'm just slurring with the tired. Disabusing oneself of notions such as fairness, rightness, hope, and greater purpose does make it easier to bear. But never gratitude, not for that.

Do you know there are actually people out there who envy us that tearing, bottomless darkness? Mostly nooage middle-class-white types who run around campfires waving dead things on sticks and calling it shamanism. I would like to slap them. For a lot of things, really.