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Caitlín R. Kiernan ([personal profile] greygirlbeast) wrote2010-08-07 12:18 pm

"Where'd it go, all that precious time?"

Cooler and, more importantly, less humid, here in Providence. I actually had to put on a sweater this morning. We had several days of hot, spectacularly humid weather, so this comes as a relief.

Today, I very much need reader comments, if only to help me stay grounded. Thank you.

Not a lot of progress on the book though. On Thursday, I wrote 1,081 words, about normal for me, for any given day. But then yesterday, a combination of self doubt and misbehaving blood pressure (thank you, meds) left me such a mess that I only wrote 14 words (I shit you not). Today, I'll try to do better.

But the truth is, almost a year after conceiving of the story that has, eventually, become The Drowning Girl, and just a couple of months shy of the two-year anniversary of having finished The Red Tree, it isn't going well. It's hardly going at all. Do I know why? I have a bucketful of conjecture, but no, I don't know for sure. I only know it's put me in a truly terrifying place.

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Lots of thoughts yesterday on convention in novels. Conventions in first-person narratives. Such as, how so few readers pause to consider the existence and motivations of the "interauthor." When you're reading a first-person narration, you're reading a story that's being told by a fictional author, and that fictional author— or interauthor —is, essentially, the central character. Their motivations are extremely important to the story. The simple fact that they are telling the story, in some fictional universe, raises questions that I believe have to be addressed by first-person narratives. Why is the interauthor writing all this down? How long is it taking her or him? Do they intend it to be read by others? Is it a confessional? Reflection? A warning? Also (and this is a BIG one), what happens to the interauthor while the story is being written, especially if it's a novel-length work of fiction?

In my case, it takes anywhere from a few months (The Red Tree, Low Red Moon) to years (my other novels) to write a novel. I assume this is the case for most people who sit down to write something that's seventy- to one-hundred-thousand words long. These are not campfire tales. These are major undertakings by their interauthors. So, the narrators stop and start writing the documents over and over and over while it's being written. But rarely are we shown what happens to her or him while the story is being told (Mark Z. Danielewski's House of Leaves is a brilliant exception, and sure there are other exceptions). Some things will almost certainly occur that are important enough that they will intrude upon the narrative.

A first-person narrative occurs in a minimum of two time frames: the present (when the story is being written down) and the past (when the story occurred).

And it baffles me that so few readers or writers pause to consider these facts, and that so few authors address these problems in the text. A first-person narrative is, by definition, an artifact, and should be treated as such. Rarely do I use the word "should" when discussing fiction writing.

The other thing I thought about a lot yesterday was the convention of chapters, especially as it applies to first person and the interauthor. Does the interauthor actually bother dividing her story into chapters, especially if she's only writing for herself? If so, why? It seems patently absurd to me. She might date each section of her manuscript. She might divide sections with hash tags or asterisks. But chapters? No. That's absurd.

If I can ever get The Drowning Girl written, it may have no chapter divisions. To use them would be a ridiculous adherence to convention that makes no sense within the context of the artifact of the story.

One more thing: Most readers do not want to read books that are, to put it bluntly, smarter than they are. Such readers get very pissed, and resentful, and interpret their emotional reactions as a mistake or shortcoming on the part of the author (transference). This phenomenon will never cease to amaze and confound me.

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Last night, we watched Sam Raimi's Drag Me To Hell (2009). It was appropriate to kid night: over-the-top goofy camp. Not sure if I liked it or not. It was fun, I suppose. Spooky probably liked it better than I did. For me, it was the sort of film I mostly enjoy while I'm watching it, but pretty much forget as soon as it's over. We also watched another episode of Nip/Tuck. We finished Season Two on Thursday night. And I have to say, the last episode of Season Two is one of the best, most-harrowing hours of television I have ever seen. I'm very glad I didn't give up on this show halfway through Season One, as I almost did.

Not much reading. It's almost impossible for me to read fiction while trying to write a novel.

And now...another fucking day...

[identity profile] easter-lane.livejournal.com 2010-08-07 07:19 pm (UTC)(link)
I actually had this argument about first person narratives last year with an ex. I had given her a copy of "The Lover" and she came back to me saying she "felt sorry for the guy" because the girl--the narrator--seemed, in her words, "cold" in her description of their affair. I was really taken aback, as this is one of my favorite books and it devestates me every time I read it. I pointed out that the narrator was a much older woman telling the tale of not only her first love affair, but all the familial and political ties that tore them apart, and that naturally an older woman was going to use different, sometimes harsh or 'cold' language to convey such a personal, hurtful time than the teenager she was would, but that didn't mean there was any passion lacking.

I believe I also mentioned that often we are not the greatest vessels to tell our own tales in an objective manner, because everything is filtered through the prism of our own experience. Our perspective on people, motivations and events will be tainted by that. My ex still didn't get it. I finally gave up and said, "Well, she's French you know," and left it at that.

[identity profile] greygirlbeast.livejournal.com 2010-08-07 07:49 pm (UTC)(link)

"Well, she's French you know," and left it at that.

Good reply, given the circumstances.

I fear that some people are more interested in judging characters than trying to see things from the point of view of those characters. I've seen this with Sarah Crowe.

[identity profile] easter-lane.livejournal.com 2010-08-07 08:52 pm (UTC)(link)
Wich is an odd way to read. I just finished Jim Thompson's "The Killer Inside Me". His first person narrator--well, if you met him in real life you wouldn't like him. But a novel isn't real life. He was my point of identification, so I went there with him. I thought that's what art was supposed to do; take you places you wouldn't ordinarily go.

When I read "The Red Tree" I feel almost as if I'm reading your obituary

[identity profile] greygirlbeast.livejournal.com 2010-08-07 09:19 pm (UTC)(link)

When I read "The Red Tree" I feel almost as if I'm reading your obituary.

That's not an invalid way of looking at it.

I thought that's what art was supposed to do; take you places you wouldn't ordinarily go.

That is precisely the object of literature. It facilitates.