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This is one of those rare mornings when I wake freezing, shivering, headachey, just shy of full-blown hypothermia, somehow having divested myself of all the blankets in the throes of this or that bad dream. And then I need two hours to get warm. Only, according to Spooky, I was actually being a bed hog, and if I'm cold it's my own damn fault.

Yesterday, I did an interview. An important interview. But I cannot yet say for whom or where it will appear. I will tell you as soon as I can. But it ate up more of the day than it should have. Also, I've gotten bloody sick of talking about myself. It's a little easier to talk about Imp or Sarah or Dancy, and almost as accurate since they're all overlapping aspects of me, anyway. To all prospective interviewers and would-be biographers of Me, I say to you, the only biography that's worth a good goddamn, the only truth-be-told, must first be filtered and fictionalized. You reduce the lives of women and men down to mere fact and history, and mostly you'll be left with the banal; if you're lucky, you'll get monotonous tragedy. Mythologize, though, and at least tragedy will seem noble, and even mundanity may be transformed and redeemed.

I am a writer, and my lot in life is to lie constantly, all the while never failing to tell the truth.

Today, I go back to work on "The Lost Language of Mollusca and Crustacea," and hopefully finish it. It will come in Sirenia Digest #73, with a great illustration by Vince Locke, plus Chapter Two of the original (scrapped) attempt to write Silk, plus (!, I hope) a new science-fiction story. I hope. Maybe.

Yesterday, I saw the colored pages for one of the Alabaster stories, colored by Rachelle Rosenberg, and wow.

An announcement. Every morning, or early afternoon, or mid afternoon, I spend anywhere from one to three hours on this journal. An hour and a half is about average, but let's say an hour, because round numbers are easier. That means I journalize seven hours a week, twenty-eight hours a month, three hundred and sixty-five hours a year (or about 15.2 days; and, in truth, a considerably larger sum). Think of all the stories or vignettes or work on novels I could get done in that time. And I've been doing this for more than eleven years, almost every single day! So, I'm thinking that after March, after the release of The Drowning Girl, I'm going to cease this every-goddamn-day blogging thing, this wearisome cataloging of the humdrum events of my humdrum life, and reserve the LJ for news of forthcoming books and of occasional interesting trips, saving untold hours that can be devoted to work, waking up, staring out the window, reading the day's news, et aliae. It's unlikely I'll change my mind.

It's looking now like the "teaser" trailer for The Drowning Girl will go live until January 3rd, due to web-design issues. We have everything in place, it just has to be assembled. The new front page of my website, that is. The thirty-second trailer is edited and ready to post (thank you, Brian!).

Yesterday, well, not much else to tell. I read a pretty good story by David Barr Kirtley (whom, I admit, I'd never heard of before), and before bed I read Stuart Moore's graphic-novel story loosely based on Thomas Ligotti's "The Last Feast of Harlequin (2007), as illustrated by Colleen Doran (I worked with her on an issue of The Dreaming, but, offhand, I can't recall which one). I napped. I watched a PBS documentary on the AZORIAN Project and the 1974 attempt to raise the sunken Soviet submarine K-129. I played Star Wars: The Old Republic. And there was other stuff.

And now, I go forth to think on bivalves and cephalopods.

Warm Now,
Aunt Beast

Date: 2011-12-29 06:33 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] kore-on-lj.livejournal.com
....ahh man. I know I rarely comment (here or anywhere on LJ) anymore, but I will really miss your blogging. I remember reading it even before I had an LJ I think, wayy back in 2003 on Blogger. But if giving up blogging will make things easier for you, that is of course the most important thing.

Date: 2011-12-29 06:39 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] greygirlbeast.livejournal.com

but I will really miss your blogging.

And, in many ways, I'll miss it, as well.

But if giving up blogging will make things easier for you, that is of course the most important thing.

It essentially comes down that, yes.

Date: 2011-12-29 06:42 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] kore-on-lj.livejournal.com
Yeah, I was horrified to realize my paper journal essentially died a slow death somewhere around 2007? mainly because my blogging really picked up then. My reading (actual BOOKS not websites &c) suffered too. I've been making a conscious effort to read more each year with those awful little "52 book challenge" lists, but it's been really hard to get back into just writing in a hard copy notebook for myself. Which is bizarre, since that always defined me -- I was the Girl with a Notebook. Sometimes I think I've maladapted to the digital world.

Date: 2011-12-29 06:43 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] greygirlbeast.livejournal.com

Yeah, I was horrified to realize my paper journal essentially died a slow death somewhere around 2007?

Same here, and I'm hoping that as I move away from blogging, three months from now, I'll return to my pen-and-paper private journals.

I was the Girl with a Notebook.

Very good sentence.

Date: 2011-12-29 06:35 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] ashlyme.livejournal.com
*my lot in life is to lie constantly*

I think Harlan once described himself as "a paid liar" in an interview.

What did you make of the graphic novel of Last Feast, by the way? Have you read the other Ligotti adaptations?

Date: 2011-12-29 06:40 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] greygirlbeast.livejournal.com

I think Harlan once described himself as "a paid liar" in an interview.

Exactly.

What did you make of the graphic novel of Last Feast, by the way? Have you read the other Ligotti adaptations?

I haven't read others. This one was good, but...odd. It really had virtually nothing to do with Ligotti's tale, hence "loosely based on." I think "suggested by' would have been more accurate.

Date: 2011-12-29 07:13 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] ashlyme.livejournal.com
Yeah, "suggested by" is a good term for them. The version of Teatro's not too bad (the artwork is lovely) but these versions lack something. Last Feast misses out that original final paragraph, which hollows it a bit.

Date: 2011-12-29 08:03 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] greygirlbeast.livejournal.com

Yeah, "suggested by" is a good term for them.

I was disappointed not to see actual adaptations.

Date: 2011-12-29 06:35 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] kendare-blake.livejournal.com
I am a writer, and my lot in life is to lie constantly, all the while never failing to tell the truth.

That should be printed on a t-shirt. Or at least embroidered into one of those wall hanging things. Great post. I'll miss the daily journal entries, but know what you mean about it being a timesuck.

Date: 2011-12-29 06:42 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] greygirlbeast.livejournal.com

Or at least embroidered into one of those wall hanging things.

A sampler! Yes, that would be very bow tie.

I'll miss the daily journal entries, but know what you mean about it being a timesuck.

Spooky has been a major impetus behind this decision, and she's simply right.

Date: 2011-12-29 06:49 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] whiskeychick.livejournal.com
I wondered, truly, over the past year, if you wouldn't be resigned to cutting back on the blog. Although, I for one, will truly miss it. However, I understand. I try to blog just Monday through Friday, giving myself a sense of a weekend (haha, no such thing when you're a freelance writer/author). But even the M-F thing gets tough when trying to juggle deadlines and what not. Given your work tempo, I can only imagine the difficulties. Yet, I do hope you won't be too much of a stranger. Your blog, as well, has become part of my daily routine as well.

Date: 2011-12-29 07:57 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] greygirlbeast.livejournal.com

Given your work tempo, I can only imagine the difficulties.

I would never call it a waste of time, but it's one of the only things I can drastically cut back on.

Date: 2011-12-29 06:43 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] whiskeychick.livejournal.com
"I am a writer, and my lot in life is to lie constantly, all the while never failing to tell the truth."

No truer words were ever written.

Date: 2011-12-29 06:44 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] greygirlbeast.livejournal.com

No truer words were ever written.

And yet, there must be a lie in there somewhere. In my comment, I mean.

Date: 2011-12-29 06:45 pm (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] sovay
So, I'm thinking that after March, after the release of The Drowning Girl, I'm going to cease this every-goddamn-day blogging thing, this wearisome cataloging of the humdrum events of my humdrum life, and reserve the LJ for news of forthcoming books and of occasional interesting trips, saving untold hours that can be devoted to work, waking up, staring out the window, reading the day's news, et aliae.

Your journal is not wearisome to read, but that sounds like a very sensible form of self-protection, especially if you're already feeling too deeply scraped at by interviews and other personal look-ins.

This has nothing to do with bivalves, but I was amused: a nicely bitchy takedown of the tropes of urban fantasy via "The Tough Guide to Fantasy Cities."

"Considering that vampires are very, very old undead people, whose flesh is unpleasantly cold and hard (marble-hard chest, flawless, icy features), it is surprising that they manage to have a sex life at all. Nevertheless, many tourists have a fling with a vampire on their Tour, so if this happens to you, there is no need to feel bad about it, or worry about your newfound interest in geriatric necrophilia. In some cities, a steamy vampire encounter is practically a coming-of-age rite."

I hope it's either an unremarkable or a pleasantly littoral day.

Date: 2011-12-29 06:47 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] greygirlbeast.livejournal.com

but that sounds like a very sensible form of self-protection,

Yes, it does.


This has nothing to do with bivalves, but I was amused: a nicely bitchy takedown of the tropes of urban fantasy via "The Tough Guide to Fantasy Cities."


Ohhhhh. This could be brilliant.


I hope it's either an unremarkable or a pleasantly littoral day.


Either will do, and thank you.

And So LJ Becomes That Much Less Bow Tie

Date: 2011-12-29 07:03 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] jtglover.livejournal.com
Your blogging will be missed, as the original-and-not-promotional content on my FList has declined, but your reasoning sounds right. I always figured that the blogging was serving a good purpose--would have to, if it consumed so much time--but when it stops being useful, well, it's no longer useful.

Ever seen Pickman's Muse? I watched it yesterday and thought it was intermittently successful as an HPL adaptation ("The Haunter of the Dark"). Too much oversaturated cinematography, and some of the to-be-expected hammy acting, but there were good bits. In particular it did a decent job of capturing the despair & ennui characteristic of many of the narrators in Lovecraft's earlier stories.

Re: And So LJ Becomes That Much Less Bow Tie

Date: 2011-12-29 08:00 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] greygirlbeast.livejournal.com

I always figured that the blogging was serving a good purpose--would have to, if it consumed so much time--but when it stops being useful, well, it's no longer useful.

It began, as I was writing Low Red Moon in 2002, as an experiment: Here's what it's like when I write a novel. And it soon became this other thing. It's still useful – if only for promotion - but there's no way to gauge that usefulness.

Ever seen Pickman's Muse? I watched it yesterday and thought it was intermittently successful as an HPL adaptation ("The Haunter of the Dark").

I haven't. But that's a weird title for an adaptation of that short story.

Re: And So LJ Becomes That Much Less Bow Tie

Date: 2011-12-29 08:34 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] jtglover.livejournal.com
I haven't. But that's a weird title for an adaptation of that short story.

Yes, it is. I think the choice was because of the increased role of painters/painting in this story--Blake isn't a writer at all, and there are a whole bunch of visual art-related things going on. Shades of "The Horror in the Clay" from "The Call of Cthulhu." Shades of "Pickman's Model," of course, but I felt uneasy watching it, as if (forgive me) the "Pickman" brand was being misused.

Re: And So LJ Becomes That Much Less Bow Tie

Date: 2011-12-29 08:39 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] greygirlbeast.livejournal.com

Shades of "Pickman's Model," of course, but I felt uneasy watching it, as if (forgive me) the "Pickman" brand was being misused.

I'd have to agree.

Date: 2011-12-29 07:39 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] fusijui.livejournal.com
I can only say I'm sorry, not that I'm surprised, that you're cutting the daily LJ writing. In the time I've been following it, your enthusiasm for LJ has never been more than "lukewarm, resentful". I've always enjoyed reading your entries... though I admit, recently, I've been checking in maybe once or twice a week myself, not daily any more. (To save them up to read a couple at once.)

I'll miss your journal, but it sounds like the right thing to do, hands down. All the best!

Date: 2011-12-29 08:01 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] greygirlbeast.livejournal.com

your enthusiasm for LJ has never been more than "lukewarm, resentful".

Odd. Overall, that's never been my attitude (though it begins to describe my attitude towards writing and life, in general).

Date: 2011-12-29 07:56 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] mizliz13.livejournal.com
I very much look forward to reading your journal every day, for all sorts of reasons. Most Recent Example: I *never* would have started playing SWTOR without your input about it, and I'm fucking loving the game. It may or may not seem small to you, but something that like makes a big impact on me by providing hours and hours of enjoyment, which can be rare in my world. Again, just one example of many -- I could go on and on.

Date: 2011-12-29 08:02 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] greygirlbeast.livejournal.com

Again, just one example of many -- I could go on and on.

I'm glad to have introduced people to wonderful things, but...

Date: 2011-12-29 08:32 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] ashlyme.livejournal.com
In the end, it's up to the writer of the journal, I guess, not her readers. What the hell, I can cope with irregular treats as well as a daily fix. We're not losing you.

Date: 2011-12-29 08:37 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] greygirlbeast.livejournal.com

In the end, it's up to the writer of the journal, I guess, not her readers.

Well, yeah.

We're not losing you.

Nope.
Edited Date: 2011-12-29 08:38 pm (UTC)

Date: 2011-12-29 09:40 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] catconley.livejournal.com
I like reading your journal very much, but I like the idea of you getting two weeks of your life back every year even more. Cheers!

Date: 2011-12-30 06:53 am (UTC)

Date: 2011-12-29 10:00 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] pisceanblue.livejournal.com
I am a writer, and my lot in life is to lie constantly, all the while never failing to tell the truth.
A fine mission statement for a grand Beast indeed.

I will miss your everyday blogging but I respect your reasoning; we have been so fortunate to experience all you have shared with us via LJ and your Blogger site, many thanks.

Date: 2011-12-29 10:26 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] papersteven.livejournal.com
I will also miss reading your journal everyday, but understand completely the reasons behind this decision. Hopefully you'll still be able to make a short post once a week or so, but whatever we get we will be happy with. Especially if this gives you more time to breathe, read, sleep, or whatever will make you happy.

Date: 2011-12-29 11:58 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] alumiere.livejournal.com
Your daily reports will be missed, but I totally understand the need to spend time writing other things (that we will then buy).

Date: 2011-12-30 12:19 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] caitlin s (from livejournal.com)
We blog readers have been very, very spoiled this year, and though I have greatly enjoyed reading this blog every day, I am another in support of your time being used to your best advantage (and will continue to read whatever I can of your writing).

I do want to make one request: I (among others, I know) really value your book/movie/music recommendations. In your occasional announcement/trip posts of the future, it would be most bow tie if you were to also mention good books/movies/musicians you had happened across.

Thank you again for all your blog posts. Now to prepare ourselves for the withdrawal symptoms, which are bound to be fittingly Beastly.

Date: 2011-12-30 02:25 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] katesavage.livejournal.com
Yours is the first blog I have ever found interesting enough to follow but it is a great idea to conserve your time and energy.

It would be nice to see the occasional musing either on LJ or in Sirenia Digest.

Date: 2012-01-02 04:45 am (UTC)
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I just wanted to say that your journal has not been a complete waste of time. I actually began reading your journal before I read any of your books. Taking the time to read your entries and learning a small snippet of your life really made me want to read your books, and I'm so glad that I did. I can understand wanting to cut back on the time spent here but I do hope the journal won't just turn into a promotions only space. I know it's a hard thing to gauge but I do think the personal tidbits bring you new readers. I know I can't be the only one that started with the journal and then went on to the books.

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