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I didn't work again yesterday. Somehow, taking one day off made me so tired that I needed two off. Which is odd, as I left the house on neither day. I think this is one reason I so rarely bother to take days off. Not only do I not have time, and not only do days off make me twitchy (no matter how much I need them), they also seems to make me tireder.

On this day a year ago—right about now—we were flying out of Portland, vaulting eastward, homeward, over a range of towering, snow-capped volcanic peaks, and little did we suspect the hell of air travel snafus and "we don't give a fucks" awaiting us in Minneapolis and beyond. Still, even for that, it was great trip. But I'll never fly again, unless I can't avoid it, or it means I get to cross the Atlantic.

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Words I find I live by more and more:

Business as usual is unacceptable. If this is the best you can do, do better. Or do something else. Do not expect me to slow down so you can catch up. No one cares, and no one is coming for you. Desire does not equate to talent, and there is too much neglected talent for anyone to have to endure mediocrity born of even the most passionate, talentless desire. Yes, it's true that honey catches more flies than does vinegar, but fly paper catches far more than either. You're dying, already. Do not ask my opinion, unless you're willing to take a chance that I might disembowel your dreams, and no, it's not worth taking the chance.

I know how it looks. Or sounds. But all we have left to us is the truth. Lies are for the World At Large, for The Machine, for Them, the Faceless Corporate Rapists of the World. And the men and women who serve them, the men and women so filled with fear and self-loathing they only know how to believe and consume and hate. The willfully ignorant. If the truth is Hell, and Heaven a lie, give me Hell. That's the only sane choice (sane being an admittedly subjective term) .

This is what happens when I don't work. I bleed thoughts. Ugly thoughts. Like, "When did America cease producing adult human beings?"

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I have received word from Subterranean Press that Two Worlds and In Between: The Best of Me (Volume One) will be arriving in the subpress warehouses today, BUT, Bill Scahfer says they "have a number of titles slated to hit the door before its turn, and half my shipping department is out sick. I don't think we'll be shipping for 1-2 weeks. " So, be patient, kittens. It's coming. It will be my Samhain gift to thee.

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Nothing much happened yesterday. I took a long hot bath. There was washing-machine drama in Pickman's Basement. The new Journal of Vertebrate Paleontology arrived. I received a biography of Arthur Machen (coincidence?) I've not read as a gift from [livejournal.com profile] ashlyme in far-away England. Small thank yous are often the nicest. Not always, but frequently. I've been playing a lot of Rift again. Not RPIng, just playing. The guild is actually still alive, which sort of amazes (put pleases) me. Selwynn abandoned Meridian, sick of watching the Guardians and Defiant squabble over science and religion while Regulus destroys the world; she now slays demons on her own terms. There were sandwiches for dinner. We read, and then I read to myself, K. W. Jeter's (the man who invented the term "steampunk," April 1987) "Riding Bitch," from the Halloween anthology. Not bad, really. But I stayed up too late reading.

Spooky's Hallowe'en Sale (!!!) in her Etsy shop, Dreaming Squid Dollworks and Sundries—20% off on everything—continues. Only two necklaces and a bracelet left, and who knows when she'll have time to make more. You snooze, someone else wins.

Now, back to the donut mines...

For the Moment, Guileless,
Aunt Beast

Date: 2011-10-04 05:05 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] marisa sandlin (from livejournal.com)
I emailed Bill at Subterranean Press yesterday to verify that I placed my order for the limited edition because I couldn't find proof anywhere in my Gmail account.

Thankfully he was nice and said I had. Whew.

Date: 2011-10-04 05:13 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] greygirlbeast.livejournal.com

Whew, indeed.

Date: 2011-10-05 07:59 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] mlb194.livejournal.com
I did the exact same thing after waking up in the middle of the night panicking that I hadn’t actually ordered the book and then I could find no actual proof that I had. I was very relieved when Bill told me I had the limited edition on order.

Date: 2011-10-04 05:13 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] jenjen4280.livejournal.com
"When did America cease producing adult human beings?"

About the same time they gave up all responsibility for their actions. I'm not sure when this occured, but it seems there's a correlation between lack of responsibility and increased feelings of entitlement.

It seems like no one is ever responsible for their own actions: it's always someone else's fault. And because it's someone else's fault, they should somehow pay you for it. Ugh. So we dumb everything down and we have warning labels on everything with personal responsibility no where in sight.

You just struck a chord with me and how I feel about my fellow Americans.

I'll get off my soap box now.

Date: 2011-10-04 05:34 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] greygirlbeast.livejournal.com


About the same time they gave up all responsibility for their actions. I'm not sure when this occured, but it seems there's a correlation between lack of responsibility and increased feelings of entitlement.


I'm thinking post-WWII.


About the same time they gave up all responsibility for their actions. I'm not sure when this occured, but it seems there's a correlation between lack of responsibility and increased feelings of entitlement.


Yes.

Date: 2011-10-04 05:35 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] martianmooncrab.livejournal.com
and Heaven a lie, give me Hell

better to reign in Hell as Milton said.

Date: 2011-10-04 05:40 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] greygirlbeast.livejournal.com


About the same time they gave up all responsibility for their actions. I'm not sure when this occured, but it seems there's a correlation between lack of responsibility and increased feelings of entitlement.


Indeed.

Or..better just to rent there, what with the cost of condos in Heaven.

Date: 2011-10-04 06:14 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] martianmooncrab.livejournal.com
what kind of real estate agents and mortgage companies would even operate there?

Date: 2011-10-04 06:23 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] greygirlbeast.livejournal.com

what kind of real estate agents and mortgage companies would even operate there?

There's a very good short-story in the answer.

Date: 2011-10-04 07:24 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] martianmooncrab.livejournal.com
I will look forwards to it then...

Date: 2011-10-04 07:54 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] lady-tigerfish.livejournal.com
Somewhat unrelated, but your above comments reminded me of a discussion I had last night, about folks who mistake earnestness for good art, and the horrors that result.

Date: 2011-10-04 08:03 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] greygirlbeast.livejournal.com

but your above comments reminded me of a discussion I had last night, about folks who mistake earnestness for good art, and the horrors that result.

And yet, without earnestness, there cannot be good art. And I don't think this is unrelated.
Edited Date: 2011-10-04 08:04 pm (UTC)

Date: 2011-10-04 11:49 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] ashlyme.livejournal.com
"small thank yous"

Glad the book reached you safe, and that the note wasn't over-fulsome. I worry about these things.

Thank you for the "business as usual" words. They reflect how I feel about my workplace right now.

Date: 2011-10-05 03:03 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] opalblack.livejournal.com
I'm going to test that honey/vinegar thing. For science. I'm skeptical. I might do that today, to keep myself occupied while the new laptop (and with it my capacity for work, and all thus implied) languishes in a courier depot somewhere.

Words I find I live by more and more:

I find myself very much in agreement. Except for the honey/vinegar saying. My hypothesis is that I will catch more ants with honey, and more flies with vinegar. I'll report my results. Although today is kind of overcast, so I might do it another day, and futter about in Photoshop on the Heighliner til the laptop arrives.

This is what happens when I don't work. I bleed thoughts. Ugly thoughts.

As do I.

Date: 2011-10-05 06:44 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] opalblack.livejournal.com
And this was what I did instead of science:
http://kalimayablack.deviantart.com/#/d4bv8aa
Trying to recreate the painted effect from the first TDG cover experiment, only partially successful. I may have to reverse engineer from the layered file, which is in a completely non-photoshop compatible format, having been made in GIMP.
I'll add some tentacles when I do that. Maybe. If I do it.

The new laptop is still languishing in a warehouse somewhere nearby, according to the tracker and the lack of a new fucking laptop in my hands. Fuckers. They want my spleen to explode, I'm sure of it.

Thankyou for sharing the link

Date: 2011-10-05 11:07 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] missmonsta.livejournal.com
Wow - thank you for posting that picture - it reminds me for some reason of the quarry scene flashback in The Red Tree as well. Sorry to post off-topic, but I'm after a little advice. I'm just starting out trying to teach myself to use Seahorse - have you tried this program (I've heard it's based on GIMP), and/or would you recommend just going straight to GIMP?

Date: 2011-10-05 02:40 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] opalblack.livejournal.com

I'll check it out tomorrow and get back to you if you like. I'm fond of GIMP, but I've been using it for a billion years so I can't really speak to how easy it is to pick up as a new user. It took some adjusting to after photoshop, mainly the different keyboard shortcuts and a few of the radically different functions, I remember that much. They don't entirely do all the same things, so I like to have both when possible. Today I was reacquainting with PS after a long estrangement, so I feel the results were a little sub-par.

I'm waffling. Add me if you like, and we can talk software ^_^

Date: 2011-10-05 03:27 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] greygirlbeast.livejournal.com

I like it. Very nice. Though, science is left wanting.
Edited Date: 2011-10-05 03:28 pm (UTC)

Date: 2011-10-05 03:39 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] opalblack.livejournal.com

Science know I'm just playing hard to get. I'm SO her bitch.

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