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I'll make no apologies for the tone of yesterday's post. There are no regrets. I will only offer an opaque excuse, that I have been made a party to what is, in my estimation, a sickening tragedy. One that could have easily been prevented. One I tried to prevent. And now I will carry the fact of it in my head for years.

And so, yeah, the fury's going nowhere soon. So, do not attempt to console me. It's amazing how many people on the internet are unable to comprehend that trying to calm a rabid animal only gets them bitten. Oh, and then they whine about how unfair it is they've been bitten. Poor fucking idiots.

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Today there is work, which part of me needs badly. Never mind my having finished a novel day before yesterday. It's not that I love the work; it's that the work keeps me sane by filling a void. So, yes, work, important work, then my psychiatrist before dinner. There's a prescription.

And speaking of work, I have begun to realize there's presently confusion over the two books I've written this year, The Drowning Girl: A Memoir and Blood Oranges. The first – The Drowning Girl: A Memoir – took me about a year and a half to write, and is, by far, my best novel to date. The second – Blood Oranges - took me forty-five days to write, and if you think of The Drowning Girl: A Memoir as, oh, let's say a gourmet meal, then Blood Oranges is the tasty, but fluffy and insubstantial, desert that comes afterwards.

The Drowning Girl: A Memoir will be out from Penguin in March 2012.

Blood Oranges hasn't yet sold.

And while I'm at it:

Two Worlds and In Between: The Best of Me (Volume One) will be out, I think, in September (or maybe October) from Subterranean Press. If you've not ordered, you need to do so.

Confessions of a Five-Chambered Heart will be released by Subterranean Press sometime in 2012.

And there's a lot more, and it's awesome, but if I told you, I really would have to kill you. No joke.

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Yesterday, I read two stories from The Book of Cthulhu. Used to be, I never read the anthologies my stories appeared in. Don't know why. I just never wanted to do it. But, the last year or so I've been reading some of the books with my stories. Anyway, yesterday I read two of the twenty-seven (I think it's twenty-seven) stories in The Book of Cthulhu. The first, John Langan's "The Shallows" is actually quite brilliant. It's unexpected, and fresh, and comes at you sideways. It's not what you think it is. These are all good things. The other was Thomas Ligotti's "Nethescurial," a very Ligottian take on the Lovecraftian found manuscript and the Lovecraftian malign artifact. And of course it was brilliant. It was Thomas fucking Ligotti.

But I fear there's a lot of this book I'm not going to like, stories I'll skip over. Because the author has chosen to use parody in her or his approach HPL, and that's just not my thing.

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Yesterday, after a lot of work and email, the "day off" began about three p.m. We drove south and west almost to the Connecticut state line, to Westerly and on down to Watch Hill. To the lighthouse at Watch Hill. We took the narrow, winding road out to the lighthouse, and sat on the sea wall. To the west, the protected waters of Little Narragansett Bay were still and quiet. A flock of cormorants sunned themselves on rotting pilings. On the east side of the point, though, the waves were still wild. Now and then, the sun through the spray off the tops of the waves created the briefest of rainbows behind them. We watched surfers a while, then drove east to Moonstone Beach.

As I've said, Moonstone has many moods. And I saw another new one yesterday. I'd expected piles of pebbles and all manner of unusual strandings and flotsam. My expectation is irrelevant. The beach looked stripped raw. I can think of no other way to describe it. There's been a tremendous amount of erosion during the storm. The tide was coming in, and there were odd sandbars and eddies, and the crashing waves – some easily six to eight feet high – were coming in from the west, the east, the southeast, the southwest, in no discernible (gods, the English language is retarded) pattern. The air reeked overwhelmingly of dead fish, though not a dead fish was in evidence. The usual cobbles were almost entirely absent. The waters in the breaker zone were an ugly greenish black, loaded with sediment and all manner of...well...dead things. Mostly plant matter. Only the Piping Plovers seemed to be happy with the state of things, dashing about madly at the water's edge. I could see that the waves had overtopped the dunes and the sea had reached both Trustom and Card ponds. It was the sight of a place you trust as being the incarnation of calm, seen after terrible violence has occurred. But the error is mine. Panthalassa has no interest in my moods, impressions, or needs, and if I thought otherwise, I'd be a fool. Moonstone will heal, in time.

Between the ponds, there were birdwatchers, and we had our monoculars with us. We spotted a Little Blue Heron (Egretta caerulea) and three Semipalmated Plovers (Charadrius semipalmatus), both new to us.

We drove on to Narragansett, but there was no power. So we couldn't get dinner at Iggy's or at George's (which is actually in Galilee). We did manage to piss at a Cumberland Farms. Their power was out, but they let us use a Bic lighter. It's amazing how dark a women's room can be. At sunset, we drove past Scarborough Beach, and Narragansett Beach. The surf was heavy at the latter, but not as heavy as I'd expected. There were dozens of surfers in the water, most seeming a bit disappointed. All in all, we saw far less damage than I'd expected. And then we came home.

And that was yesterday. Oh, except for three wasted hours in Second Life. If you tell me you like it dark, and then bale when it gets rough, and without so much as a "good night," you're a simpering weasel, and it's really as simple as that.

Wrathfully,
Aunt Beast

The beach looked stripped raw

Date: 2011-08-30 07:00 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] oldfossil59.livejournal.com
I've had this happen as well. I've gone to the beaches along the Potomac after tropical storms,(places that were fairly rich with shark,and skate's teeth and various fossils), expecting to find a treasure of unearthed delights-only to find the beaches quite bare, and "stripped raw" as you so succinctly described.

But I am so glad you've gotten a chance to do some birdwatching, migrates must be starting to make their way through your area soon.

Death Cab for Cutie-"Plans"- It quite an excellent collection isn't it.If you're still interested in the Depeche Mode boxed set- I'll send one soon as a congratulatory gift-for both Blood Oranges and your six month LJ marathon, which has been tremendous.

Re: The beach looked stripped raw

Date: 2011-08-30 07:08 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] greygirlbeast.livejournal.com

If you're still interested in the Depeche Mode boxed set

Gods, you're too generous. How am I supposed to say no to that?

Re: The beach looked stripped raw

Date: 2011-08-30 07:14 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] oldfossil59.livejournal.com
I'm thrilled to be of service. You've given me countless hours of thoughtful, brilliant and beautiful moments with your creations, I'm over-joyed to give a little something back.

Date: 2011-08-30 07:01 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] wolfsilveroak.livejournal.com
Your description of Moonstone Beach being stripped raw reminds me of my impressions of the Roanoke River Gorge here after the flood waters from 4 Hurricanes that came up through SW Va from the gulf- after they pummeled Florida- looked like.

Gone was the sandy beach area that was being encroached upon by the trees and various other plants, gone was the deceptively slow, lazy flow of water. (http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v391/WolfSilverOak/river1.jpg) All that was left was bare rocks- boulders the size of houses, ones the size of a small truck and smaller. (http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v391/WolfSilverOak/newyears052.jpg)

But what really stuck with me wasn;t the sudden change in the water flow- both the course of the river and the speed- but was the huge driftwood like trunk of an old cedar (http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v391/WolfSilverOak/newyears054.jpg)that had been buried for who knows how long, was now bared to the sun and revealed to all.

Nature has a way of revealing the most beautiful things in the most destructive way.

Date: 2011-08-30 07:11 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] greygirlbeast.livejournal.com


But what really stuck with me wasn;t the sudden change in the water flow- both the course of the river and the speed- but was the huge driftwood like trunk of an old cedar that had been buried for who knows how long, was now bared to the sun and revealed to all.


Wow. Though, what I find the most horrifying is the human trash caught in the dead limbs post-hurricane.


Nature has a way of revealing the most beautiful things in the most destructive way.


Yes.

Date: 2011-08-30 07:45 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] wolfsilveroak.livejournal.com
Though, what I find the most horrifying is the human trash caught in the dead limbs post-hurricane.


Oh gods yes. It was bad, really, really bad. Most of it you could tell had been in the water for a long time as well.


The Sycamore that's in the water/rocks behind the cedar trunk (looks like another bunch of sticks/branches), was still alive as well. I went back the following spring, it'd sent out leaves and was thriving despite it all. And of course, I can't find the photo of it, which means I never uploaded it. Whoops. Heh.

Date: 2011-08-30 07:15 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] stsisyphus.livejournal.com
I'll make no apologies for the tone of yesterday's post.

I'm trying to figure out what in the hell was wrong with the tone of the post. Not much so far as I can see.

It's amazing how many people on the internet are unable to comprehend that trying to calm a rabid animal only gets them bitten

It's amazing how many people don't know what a rabid animal looks/sounds like. People ignore their survival instincts.

Date: 2011-08-30 07:44 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] greygirlbeast.livejournal.com

I'm trying to figure out what in the hell was wrong with the tone of the post. Not much so far as I can see.

It was pretty bitter and vicious. But then, so am I.

People ignore their survival instincts.

Yes. Hence, natural selection.

Date: 2011-08-30 07:19 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] robyn-ma.livejournal.com
Does Spooky have Wings of Desire on DVD? If not, she can have my old one.

Date: 2011-08-30 07:45 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] greygirlbeast.livejournal.com

Yerp. She already has it. But thanks.

Date: 2011-08-30 07:24 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] martianmooncrab.livejournal.com
are unable to comprehend that trying to calm a rabid animal only gets them bitten

(sharpening a pokey stick) unless its a competative sport...

Date: 2011-08-30 07:45 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] greygirlbeast.livejournal.com

(sharpening a pokey stick) unless its a competative sport...

Don't even think it.

Date: 2011-08-30 07:56 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] martianmooncrab.livejournal.com
uhm, (throwing stick) fetch?

Date: 2011-08-30 07:26 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] fornikate.livejournal.com
i just pictured you as a honey badger.

Date: 2011-08-30 07:46 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] greygirlbeast.livejournal.com

i just pictured you as a honey badger.

Yeah. Mellivora capensis works for me.

Date: 2011-08-30 11:56 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] bdef.livejournal.com
Can hardly wait to see Drowning Girl. Any chance of a hint on what it's about?

Date: 2011-08-31 04:38 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] greygirlbeast.livejournal.com

Any chance of a hint on what it's about?

See, if you subscribed to Sirenia Digest, you'd have read the first two chapters by now.

It's about a schizophrenic girl, and art, and the nature of hauntings.

Date: 2011-08-31 08:42 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] bdef.livejournal.com
Thanks!

Date: 2011-08-31 07:32 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] aarontbc.livejournal.com
Because the author has chosen to use parody in her or his approach HPL, and that's just not my thing.

I really hate parodies of Lovecraft. They come across as cynical, condescending and arch.

Date: 2011-08-31 05:00 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] mr-earbrass.livejournal.com
I'm really digging the Book of Cthulhu--way better than your average Lovecraftian antho, so far. My favorites to date have been the Stross, the Tanzer, and, well, the opener--very nicely done, and thank you for it!

Date: 2011-09-05 05:53 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] jplangan.livejournal.com
Wow--thank you so much for the generous remarks!

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